The slow realization that the situation is not really satisfying, and that the chosen course of action does not seem to lead to the desired destination...
River
How long have I been here ? / Feels like it’s been forever
Doing what I’ve been told / Taking in what I’ve been sold
Constantly pondering / Never remembering
When did I choose this boat ? / When did I choose this river ?
How long must I stay here ? / Not sure I want to be
Ever meandering / Throughout eternity
Whose aim am I serving ? / Whose game am I playing ?
Doing what I assume / Is expected of me
Waking up on a boat
That barely stays afloat
Going down with the mainstream
Though I cannot deny
It is I at the helm
Do I really have a choice ?
I used to have a dream / The ocean was calling
Drawn off course by the flow / Perpetually striving
Debased by the shallow / Never really reaching
I used to have a goal / Where is all of this leading ?
I’m heading for a dam / I’m falling prey to doubt
The current getting stronger / Rapids ahead of me
Evermore wondering / Never really knowing
This life I call my own / How else could it have turned out ?
Waking up on a boat
That barely stays afloat
Going down with the mainstream
And I can’t justify
Why should I go along ?
When I feel it is all wrong
Hi poligraf - I like the call and answer to this song for lyrical it is - 'and she was' by Talking Heads sprang to mind - i can see David Byren warbling this a la ''once ina lifetime" over a watery video... mitch
Nicely penned.
It only feels like it's been forever while you are moving with it. But then, when it stops, you realize it wasn't forever at all. It was just a little while. --Michael
A wise write poligraf
thank you very much kind poets ! :o) @Mitch : indeed, it is a song... 2nd movement of an 8-part suite... see also Source, Rapids, and Dam if you like... the 4 other chapters are in the works... ;o)