Sat on this for a long, long time as it seemed too damn personal to publish. As poetry it ain't much but it is honest and those who are going through this unending nightmare (it never really goes away. Not completely anyhow), might be able to relate.
Stains
You left a stain on
every day of my
childhood
You soiled my spirit
with the blood of my
soul
Perhaps it will take
all the flames of
perdition to make
right what you did
to me but I doubt
you could burn long
enough for my anger
to be appeased
You made me
a victim, a hater
of a fellow human
being
I wished you dead
so often the angels
themselves could
not hope to fathom
the count
No, my hatred has
left me well beyond
the grace of Heaven's
golden realm
My consolation?
If I too must be
abandoned to
the eternal pit,
I will pray to
whatever god
may hear a
lament from
such a place
that I alone
be permitted
to stoke the
flames beneath
your fetid carcass
And even if God
on high chooses
to someday pardon
your unholy trespass
do not dare to smile...
I do not forgive so easily.
Interesting!
Very powerful and revealing write to say the least. I could feel your emotions as I read this. Thank you for sharing such personal and well written piece.
Powerful, heart felt poetry. The form actually accentuates the forcefulness of the emotions. Excellent work.
I can relate in another way the only justice is a run thru of a red hot stake thru the vile's heart enough said ...regards
A magnificent and powerful write. I can only hope that you were able to move on from whatever was haunting you with this piece. I did once hear a quote from Josh Billings that I was reminded of, "There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness."
True, you are. Did the man or woman who was the object of these words ever read them? Kath is right...forgiving and forgetting are beyond our human capacity.
I disagree with you strongly, Patrick - contrary to your assertion about a lack of poetry in your lines above, I find very strong and powerful poetry in it... It's moving and disturbing as this poem should be, and what a dramatic end....This is powerful.-..
Whoa! Powerful in every way imaginable! I can only hope this provided one hell of a catharsis, Friend Patric. I won't pretend I don't know the feeling; My satisfaction comes from smilingly consigning eligible parties to ranks of the terminally irrelelvent.
Wow! This alludes tactfully without outright expressing the horrendous vile deed that forever scarred irreparably the speaker. Excellent! It aptly presents the reality. Haunting. Indeed, we cannot readily forgive, I wonder whether we can unless the Lord grants us forgiveness. "Sorry" is too light for this horror, speechlessness is what is left in the eerie light of it, before the impotent wrath.
Wow! I am still with deep respect before this anguish, this pain, this courage. I'm so sad for your having experienced such a terrible legacy...This is an honest write and you have my applause
I had to read this thrice for I needed to feel the depth of this very mighty work Patrick!2 Thumbs up for this write!! Can't say more..
An open book of yourself with veracity. Such a brave sentiments from a person who is not afraid to expose what you feel and who you are. Goo one Patrick.
A biting honesty.
thanks for sharing this Patrick...as many can relate...for me though, it's more important to forgive one's self...it took me more than 30 years to erase the guilt....the stain remains but i consider that my badge of courage...and it takes courage to share something like this...I commend you for baring heart and soul.....
Brave poem! It is really a poem: it's you, who can say what is or is not "too personal"...? I know the feeling. I agree with Frank: the last line is superb. Humbly, I wish you'd found some peace. Blessings, Patrick
Patrick, this is exceptional work, mate! Love the last, lone line, as that has been my mantra since i was a raucus bopperin the late 70's ! You ARE indeed a Poet, Patrick, as a true Poet bares all from mind, heart & soul...and this work, is a textbook paragon for that claim ! Rock On, mgood buddy! ~FjR~
A man after my own heart Patrick :) Forgiving some things just doesn't get on the agenda. Moving on is hard enough. Letting go is even harder. But forgiving? *whistles through teeth* - some things go too deep for forgiveness to get a look in or even a mention. Bravo you for putting this out there for us to share - That "do not dare to smile... I do not forgive so easily." hit me right in the solar plexus. My words from your mouth. :) kath xxx
I thought I wrote with brutal honesty until I read this, breath taking