A poem I wrote when my kids were teens and hated me. As parents we have all been there in that moment
Sacrificing....Gifts from the heart
Please rethink your past...open up your heart and mind
Do you really think I was that unkind?
Did I play favorites or was age the stage
I understand... I went through the same rage
But my older brother was mentally challenged
Yet still I felt slighted and damaged.
Till one day I had children of my own
What you see in youth is not the whole picture shown
Your memory deceives and plays games
You remember the bits to blame
As a mother I gave gifts from the heart
Sacrifices right from the start
Only some of those you saw
Or maybe you just remember the flaws
We are all human and perfection is rare
I know I'm very far from there
Someday I hope you'll understand
When you have your own children in hand
And they come at you with anger and spite
That what you did wasn't right
Your mind will flashback to this day
Where my heart was betrayed
For I thought I gave gifts from the heart
Sacrificing right from the start
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I don't think that your children hated you, but just had their own way of thinking and doing things as we all do. I have a son who is going to turn forty and I would fall over if he called me once a year and he only lives an hour from me. Oh well, that is his choice not mine. So with prayer I ask God to touch his heart and one day????? That's all a Mother can do. We are never taught how to be a Mother, we repeat sometimes not all of it good, what our parents taught us. God bless
And I'm sure you were a warm and giving mum... and isn't it interesting how this is someitmes only understood when they finally get to walk in your shoes with young of their own... well written and moving work