15 years married to a narcissist
the ties that bind
I.
eloquent orbs so vulnerable
how honestly they burn
lips that promise everything
avowal then be spurned
II.
impassioned your apologies
a defensive mechanism
verbal caulking in the cracks
of ever widening schism
III.
gratifiied, your kindnesses
are not to be forgotten
forced remembrances reveal
motivations misbegotten
IV.
subsumed my sexuality
all preferences disdained
an orgasmic addiction
while intimacy abstained
V.
secrets raped and plundered
now arrows nocked in bow
weapons made of weaknesses
wicked wounds bestow
VI.
frivolous expenditures
not to be accounted
selfish desires satiate
while debt swiftly mounted
VII.
unapproved friendships, all
spurned along the way
unwanted competition
for an ego nursing hate
VIII.
an addicts mentality
false sense of vindication
vile delusion validate
by demanding degradation
IX.
emotional abandonment
unjust retaliation
in cruelty and loathing
spew false insinuation
X.
deranged puppet master
manipulative expertise
pathetic satisfaction
forcing puppets to their knees
XI.
whisper hollow promises
in arrogant assumption
thinking to beguile again
an assinine presumption
XII.
words bereft of meaning
fall from serpents tongue
scathing condemnation
and imprecations slung
XIII.
living in your little world
imprisoned by your needs
steep the cost of kindness here
a heart full it exceeds
XIV.
meaningless for all these years
the way my heart's been torn
but rising from love's ashes
as phoenix I'm reborn
XV.
profess now your undying love
with feigned sincerity
I'm not your puppet anymore
I cut the fucking strings