The gig is up.
Santa isn't real and mam and dad have spent a fortune.
This year the pillow cases will stay on the beds.
I've dreaded this, since a baby oblivious to strategically
spilt sherry and a mince pie eaten
at indigestion inducing speed,
ignored an army of teddies some 16 years ago.
Now my daughter asks for money in an envelope
and my mind swirls with images of christmas past,
not theirs, but mine, when fists were unclenched privately
and we were allowed to experience unfettered childhood.
My children have never needed fraudulent magicians
for one day a year, I turn from the sink and cheerfully ask,
"what are you going to buy with it?" the reply dissolves me,
"I thought we could have a day at the sales and get our nails done".
There is more in my future than there is in my past.
Merry Christmas x.
Happy boxing day.