~ gasping again ~
I Need To Breathe
I take in a breath,
careful not to go so deep
as to the very spot
where you used to be.
That spot, that tender spot
so far inside me
I never knew existed...
til you found it.
My soul received you,
so willingly,
so lovingly.
It was there you lived,
breathed and loved.
I’ve done it too many times,
taken the air in too far
til it met with that spot.
Something so very scary happens.
In that very moment of connection,
air to that spot, that place so deep...
what I felt was a big empty space
waiting for your return,
is actually all that is left of me...
and it comes bursting forth
in the form of tears...
so many tears.
Choking on them,
struggling to take in
even a small breath,
I gag on the truth;
I cannot breathe.
Sometimes this phenomenon
startles me out of a peaceful sleep.
Other times it’s in the middle
of the busiest times at work,
with people all around me.
There is no warning,
and try as I might
to suppress this exposure,
this baring of my soul,
I continue to need that next breath ...
and you.
And so I do it again,
taking in such a deep breath,
filling my lungs with all I need
to feel you close to me.
Again I cry,
sobbing, wailing,
because that spot,
reserved for just you,
continues to swell and fill
with memories and love,
and here you are....
puncturing my soul
with all you are to me...
my very best friend...
and
my next breath.
a nice write, talks a lot about your pain and life.
great write- and those last lines really clinch it.
I just noticed the ~ gasping again ~ at the head of the poem: nice touch. Again, thoroughly enjoyed the read, this one imparts more, the more it is read, perhaps the best poem on this site so far, for me, at least, simply because you share your soul . . . or appear to. Excellent.
How much love this one conveys its readers. God bless
I have read this one a few times, I came back today, not really intending to comment, but at last , your words have hit home. Tis very sad, this poem, very well written, and over flowing with personal feeling. I love it.
Written with such sincerity and the depth of emotion..Thanks for sharing your poetry, Nadine.
I agree this has painful beauty in all its phrases - - the last phrases are permeated with sadness. Delicate and yet has a strength between lines.
ohhh... so painfully beautiful! Thanks for sharing. >>>SMILE! THE DAY IS A NEW GIFT! :)emilou g.
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Wow, what a well-paced and finely-penned gem! The cyclical nature of love, trust and sorrow permeate with such clarity.
a very deep pain well written
cells breathing the love from each nucleus...well done..
A very emotional poem describing such deep pain that one can feel.
Deep, so deep, I tasted the pain...A love so tender...should not bring about such heartache, yet often it does... Dorothy Singing a Sad Song