Written during my youthful angst
I am going down, I am drowning
and it is suicidal;
for rescue is close at hand.
A drowning man will grasp at a straw
while I ignore the nearby floating logs
of truth and intelligence.
The life preserver of good and
righteousness is the
extended hands of friendship,
love, and family.
I cannot swim, I am not strong
Perhaps I would float,
if I could but relax and
care enough to try.
But no, instead I close my eyes
to salvation;
I open my mouth wide,
to swallow the sea
of self-destruction.
I am reminded of Anticlea's drowning after she gave up hope ever to see her son, Odysseus alive. She turned her face to the sea and strode in until she disappeared. Powerful.