I'm angry
When I'm angry with you
I want to be around you
I want to stand in front of you
and say: look at me I'm
angry.
Look at me, I don't know why, or what
I want to say. I swear there's
been our story that's been
written and rewritten in my head and the
way it always ends is in anger.
I don't have the energy
to retell these chapters
I've laid out so carefully,
so maddeningly womanly. I
do not think you'll listen.
I open my mouth and your armour
is ready it seems, since yesterday.
It is always about me, it seems
all day, and I never seem to think
of you at all.
I could have sworn
I've waited so long to say this
just this once.
And I am always accusing you wrongly
And I am always poorly misled
And I am always creating a fuss for nothing,
all in my head. And I am always painting
the wrong picture, making you too grand
or making you a monster. I don't remember
doing any of those things, but what if
you are right?
I look at you, I cannot make my anger
be, my resolve is weak, and the heart
so pulpy tender. Who am I to judge,
even if it's about me? ? My anger
doesn't make much of a case.
And you with
your own problems. And I stop to colour me
martyr. I am proud of how very
little I need. I will take this down
to skin and bones if need be. I do not want to be
mean to you, I whisper. I sniffle quietly,
so as not to be heard.
I fear this has been years
of emotional abuse, if I could just
explain. It couldn't have been
that bad. I don't know.I look at you,
I have nothing to say. I follow you to
tell you: I'm angry.
Don't dare delete this. It is a good lesson to us men who tend to think we know better.
Life is a two ways street, what one woman may be going through, a man may be experiencing the same, for we are all human beings aftert all...So, let the ball rolls...Love will come back to you in a better, stronger and positive way....Let the music play! Do not delete it, please, keep it up! Love and Peace, Romeo
Anger needs to be confronted. The longer it remains silent, the more it will fester. You analysed your feelings well in this brilliant people. Well done my friend!