At least I have made myself into the
most unlovable person who has ever
been, some consolation indeed; I am
a scoundrel at work, taking up space
and oxygen, at home I’m too pre-
occupied to get anyone’s attention
Only when I became resigned that my
daughter would smash her car could I
relax while she charged all obstacles,
refusing to change gears even when
the car stalled; I cried in despair as
my son bicycled home in the dark
The only consolation I got was that he
promised not to do it again - I give up
tried in vain to attain spiritual growth;
I am the worst person I know - the
sooner I give up wrong ideals and
attempt being the worst delinquent
The world has ever seen, the sooner I
would be happy again, emitting such
a low vibration, it will take a million
lifetimes to take me to a higher
plane; every friend I have
dreamt of, every ideal
Destroyed by MYSELF spiritualists say,
claiming we create our own reality, my
feelings inform me I have created the
worst nightmare - losing family and
friends – according to twin sis, my
dad feels the same about life
I wish I could share my pain with him
but he is out of bounds; just my luck
that us two scoundrels may not meet
again, such just punishment…
I don't know why you feel so guilty about events that most likely were bound to happen and now are beyond your control! What it is, is what it is! Become your own dear friend and you won't any problems with the rest of the world! It is time to move on and listen with empty ears those disturbing words that hold you down! You are you, independently of what other people think! Find courage in the Mighty One above and you will go forward toward the Sun without going blind again! Sad but touching write! Thank you for sharing ! God Bless You! Love and Peace for always! Romeo-NYC