I wanted to be an explorer..

I don't know if I made the wrong decision,
But I don't know if it's the correct one either.
I don't know what I truly want in life.
I wanted to explore, meet new people, take risks,
But I couldn't do that if I was basically tied down.
I didn't want to hurt you,
But I was hurt..So I wanted revenge of some sort.
I wanted to be able to do without worry.
I wanted to make mistakes and not have to be afraid of particular reactions.
I wanted to fall and get back up on my own.
I wanted to build my walls and keep them stable.
I just want to be myself,
No changes,
No holding back.
I get to be me with no worries,
No regrets.