Shit.
I love you so much,
Always and forever.
I made a promise,
And I plan to keep it.
Even though we may fall apart,
I'm telling you that I will always love you.
Even though you take longer to realize what's happening,
Even though you really haven't yet..at least not fully,
I'm telling you that I will always love you.
Even though you are trying to change me,
But reassuring me that you love me..
I guess I could say that I'll always love you.
I understand that you're just now 'getting it',
But you have to realize that you're really not.
Actually you have no clue.
You're trying to keep me around.
You're using a 'guilt trip' on me,
Don't lie. I know.
You're trying to change me,
I like who I am..
If you don't, goodbye.
You're trying to hold me back from going away,
Trust me, it's not going to work.
I will get to where I'm going.
I have dreams that I will accomplish.
So if you're going to be that stupid and try,
Good luck to ya and goodbye.
You're taking advantage of what I do.
We're not even able to spend time with one another and just talk,
Without something going wrong and you getting defensive.
I have to watch what I say for you not to cry and act like you're two.
I'm not allowed to have a week to myself and my friends,
Without you saying that you'd like to talk with me,
And that never really happening.. You just wanted to see me.
We can't even lie down together without losing control of hormones.
We aren't the same as we used to be, honestly.
I've noticed and I hope you sure as hell have too.
I'm an independent woman with a dream to become a professional scientist.
I am going to my first choice college with a dedicated heart and pure determination.
I like to learn new things, meet more people, help out with whatever is needed.
I like kids, whether they be annoying, little monsters, or cute as hell;
But that doesn't mean I want to get pregnant now.
I like my young years, I like to have fun not sit around doing nothing.
I hated watching television and watching movies.
I like walking around by myself to just think.
I speak up for myself and back up my actions.
I like to play basketball and volleyball with my friends and family.
I like to be noticed even while we're out with friends.
I like to be able to talk to a significant other without having to think of their reaction before speaking.
I like to swim by myself, I may be afraid but I try not to be.
I like to read, sing and write.
I like to be able to remember things without being reminded constantly.
I like being able to stay awake without anyone blowing up my email or text inbox.
I honestly liked it better when I was single,
Because I didn't have to worry what I did.
I liked it better when I was much younger,
And I could walk freely with no regrets and no boundaries.
I don't like that you make me feel as though I should depend on you,
Or anyone else.
I don't like that you have been trying to control everything that I do,
Even though you say you don't..everyone can see..why can't you?
I don't like that you're trying to hold me back from going away to college,
You've said before that you wish I wasn't going away,
We can't always be together.
People change,
Feelings change.
It's not lying,
It's reality.
This is not fiction or a television show,
This is real life and our relationship.
Whether you may like it or not,
We will NOT always be with each other.
There won't always be an 'us.'
I don't enjoy hurting people,
But I also don't enjoy just sitting there and letting someone ruin me,
And what I would like to achieve.
Try to understand.